Remembering People

"It's nice to be remembered, but it's far cheaper to be forgotten." I wasn't able to find the author of this quote, but during my lifetime I've found this saying to be sadly, but understandably, true.

I've always had to work for friendships. I'm not saying that friendships come easy, but I've had to work a lot harder than most people I know to make friends and keep them. Stepping out of my comfort zone and social skills were always tricky areas for me. I only started making lasting friendships when I got to college, but even then, I've had to try hard to get people to remember me.

This isn't an accusation against my friends or against people in general. We're all busy and we all have lives - academic, social, professional lives - and we can't keep up with everybody all the time. It's normal. But I feel like, with almost all my friends, I'm the one that really makes the effort to keep in touch to stay in each other's lives. I rarely get personally invited to anything. It's incredible how nice it feels when someone texts you or calls you and says, "Hey, some friends and I are going to the movies tonight. Would you like to join us?" It indicates that that person was thinking about you. The invitation doesn't have to be to something awesome. It could be that a friend randomly texts you and asks if you would like to study with them, or go get coffee. It's the thought, the consideration, that counts.

So since I rarely get those types of invitations, I often feel largely invisible. Sure, I'm invited to campus-wide events, club events, etc - but everybody on campus and in said club are invited. Those events aren't by individual invitation. I never lack things to do, but most of these are of my organizing (me reaching out to other people) or events that are put on by other organizations that I go to with friends.

All I'm saying is that it's nice to be remembered. It takes a lot of effort for me to stay out of obscurity in my friends' busy lives, but maintaining those friendships would be more special and more important to me if that effort was in some way reciprocated. Then it doesn't feel so much like a one-sided friendship.

Hopefully this all makes sense. Once again, I want to clarify that this isn't an accusation or an attack against anyone in particular.

CHICKEN

So, I really like chicken. And in early March, McDonald's reintroduced their Chicken Selects in an attempt to make the menu a little more upscale. Anyway, I LOVED the chicken selects. They were the only chicken fast food I was willing to eat. They tasted fresh, they were juicy and just really good with fries. I was so disappointed when they took them off the menu. So you can imagine how excited I was when they brought them back.

So I decided I'd rank my favorite fast food chicken items (that I've tried, at least).

Honey butter chicken biscuit

1) McDonald's Chicken Selects

2) I'm from Texas, so I love Whataburger. I was recently introduced to their honey butter chicken biscuits, which are only available early in the morning or after 11pm, which are not normal times I go to Whataburger. The sweetness of the honey butter coated on the chicken tender was perfection, and great with fries for the salt combination.

3) Chick-Fil-A's Original Chicken Sandwich with Waffle Fries - Need I say more?

3) Burger King's Chicken Fries - Slightly spicy. They're okay, I haven't had them in a long time, but I remember they took them off the menu and brought them back in the past year or something.

4) McDonalds Chicken Nuggets - I can't stand eating them in the USA - they taste funky to me, and often have weird black/brown parts or specks on the inside. In Spain, however, they are fantastic for some reason (they just taste a lot more natural to me) and I could eat them every day.

5) Wendy's Chicken Nuggets - I can't eat them. I used to, but then they got oddly chewy to me, kind of liquid-y, and I'm very sensory sensitive so I couldn't handle the overly chewiness to them.




 Hope this helps you out when you next decide you feel like eating fast food chicken!

Parachute

Saturday's song: Parachute by Ingrid Michaelson (2010). 

I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand

I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned.

I won't tell anybody, won't tell anybody.

They wanna push me down,

They wanna see you fall down. 

I won't tell anybody that you turn the world around.

I won't tell anyone that your voice is my favorite sound.

I won't tell anybody, won't tell anybody.

They wanna see us fall,

They wanna see us fall down. 

CHORUS

I don't need a parachute, baby, if I got you.

Baby, if I got you, I don't need a parachute.

You're gonna catch me, 

You're gonna catch if I fall

Down, down, down. 

Don't believe the things you tell yourself

So late at night. 

And you are your own worst enemy,

You'll never win the fight. 

Just hold onto me, I'll hold onto you.

It's you and me up against the world, 

It's you and me. 

I don't believe anything,

Don't trust anyone but me. 

But I believe you when

You say you were never gonna fall.

Hand behind my neck,

Arm around my waist. 

Never let me hit the ground,

You'll never let me crash. 

CHORUS x2 

I won't fall out of love, I won't fall out of

I won't fall out of love, I won't fall out of 

I won't fall out of love, I won't fall out of 

I won't fall out of love, I fall into you.

x2 

CHORUS x3

Brave

"Brave" by Sara Bareilles (2013). 

You can be amazing,

You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug.

You can be the outcast,

Or be the backlash of somebody's lack of love

Or you can start speaking up. 

Nothing's gonna hurt you the way that words do

When they settle 'neath your skin.

Kept on the inside and no sunlight,
Sometimes a shadow wins. 

I wonder what would happen if you...

CHORUS

Say what you want to say

And let the words fall out.

Honestly, I want to see you be brave. 

Say what you want to say

And let the words fall out.

Honestly, I want to see you be brave. 

I just wanna see you,

I just wanna see you,

I just wanna see you,

I want to see you be brave.

x2 

Everybody's been there, 

Everybody's been stared down by the enemy.

Fallen for the fear,

And done some disappearing,

Bow down to the mighty. 

Don't run, just stop holding your tongue.

Maybe there's a way out of the cage where you live,

Maybe one of these days you can let the light in.

Show me how big your brave is...

CHORUS

And since your history of silence

Won't do you any good,

Did you think it would? 

Let your words be anything but empty,

Why don't you tell them the truth? 

CHORUS

I just wanna see you,

I just wanna see you,

I just wanna see you,

I want to see you be brave.

x4

Rainbow Veins

Yesterday's song: "Rainbow Veins" by Owl City (2008). 

High rise, veins of the avenue,

Bright eyes, and subtle variations of blue,

Everywhere is balanced there like a rainbow above you. 

Street lights glisten on the boulevard

And cold nights make staying alert so hard. 

For heaven's sake, keep me awake so I won't be caught off-guard. 

Clearly I am a passerby but I'll find a place to stay.

Dear pacific day, won't you take me away? 

Small town hearts of the New Year

Brought down by gravity, crystal clear. 

City fog and and brave dialogue converge on the frontier

Make haste, I feel your heartbeat

With a new taste for speed, out on the street.

Find a road to a humble abode where both of our routes meet.

The silver sound is all around and the colors fall like snow. 

The feeling of letting go, I guess we'll never know. 

Cheer up and dry your damp eyes

And tell me when it rains

And I'll blend up that rainbow above you

And shoot it through your veins.

'Cause your heart has a lack of color. 

And we should've known that we'd grow up 

Sooner or later 'cause we wasted all our free time alone. 

Your nerves gather with the altitude

Exhale the stress so you don't come unglued. 

Somewhere there is a happy affair, 

A ghost of a good mood.

Wide-eyed, panic on the getaway

The high tide could take me so far away.

VCRs and motorcars unite on the Seventh Day.

A popular gauge will measure the rage 

Of the new Post-Modern age. 

'Cause somewhere along the line 

All the decades align.

We were the crashing whitecaps

On the ocean.

And what lovely seaside holiday, away

A palm tree in Christmas lights

My emotion.

Struck a sparkling tone like a xylophone

As we spent the day alone. 

Cheer up and dry your damp eyes

And tell me when it rains

And I'll blend up that rainbow above you

And shoot it through your veins.

'Cause your heart has a lack of color. 

And we should've known that we'd grow up 

Sooner or later 'cause we wasted all our free time alone. 

When She Loved Me

"When She Loved Me," from the Toy Story 2 soundtrack, sung by Sarah McLachlan. 

When somebody loved me

Everything was beautiful

Every hour spent together

Lives within my heart. 

And when she was sad, 

I was there to dry her tears.

And when she was happy,

So was I. 

When she loved me. 

Through the summer and the fall,

We had each other, that was all.

Just she and I together,

Like it was meant to be. 

And when she was lonely,

I was there to comfort her. 

And I knew that she loved me. 

So the years went by,

I stayed the same. 

But she began to drift away

I was left alone.

Still I waited for the day

When she'd say

"I will always love you."

Lonely and forgotten,

Never thought she'd look my way.

She smiled at me, and held me,

Just like she used to do.

Like she loved me,

When she loved me. 

When somebody loved me,

Everything was beautiful.

Every hour spent together

Lives within my heart.

When she loved me. 

White Houses

Yesterday's song: "White Houses" by Vanessa Carlton (2004).

Crashed on the floor when I moved in, 

This little bungalow with some strange new friends.

Stay up too late, and I'm too thin

We promise each other it's till the end. 

Now we're spinning empty bottles, 

It's the five of us,

With pretty-eyed boys girls die to trust.

I can't resist the day,

No, I can't resist the day.

Jenny screams out and it's no pose, 

'Cause when she dances, she goes and goes.

Beer through the nose on an inside joke,

And I'm so excited, I haven't spoken.

And she's so pretty, and she's so sure

Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her. 

Summer's all in bloom.

Summer's ending soon. 

It's alright,

And it's nice not to be so alone. 

But I hold on to your secrets 

In white houses. 

Maybe I'm a little bit over my head,

I come undone at the things he said.

And he's so funny in his bright red shirt

We were all in love and we all got hurt.

I sneak into his car's cracked leather seat

The smell of gasoline and the summer heat.

Boy, we're going way too fast  

It's all too sweet to last.

It's alright,

And I put myself in his hands

But I hold on to your secrets in white houses.

Love, or something ignites in my veins 

And I pray it never fades,

In white houses. 

My first time, hard to explain

Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain

On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think.

He's my first mistake. 

Maybe you were all faster than me,

We gave each other up so easily

These silly little wounds will never mend

I feel so far from where I've been.

So I go, and I will not be back here again,

I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses.

I lied, wrote my injuries all in the dust

In my heart it's the five of us,

In white houses.

And you, maybe you'll remember me,

What I gave is yours to keep

In white houses (x3).

When It Rains

"When it Rains" by Paramore (2007). 

And when it rains 

On this side of town it touches everything. 

Just say it again and mean it. 

We don't miss a thing. 

You made yourself a bed 

At the bottom of the blackest hole 

(Blackest hole). 

And convinced yourself that 

It's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore. 

CHORUS

And no, oh, how could you do it? 

Oh, I, I never saw it coming.

No, oh, I need the ending. 

       So why can't you stay 

       Just long enough to explain? 

And when it rains

Will you always find an escape? 

Just running away from

All of the ones who love you,

From everything. 

You made yourself a bed

At the bottom of the blackest hole
(Blackest hole). 

And you'll sleep 'til May 

And you'll say that 

You don't wanna see the sun anymore.

CHORUS 

Take your time. 

Take my time. 

Take these chances to turn it around

(Take your time) 

Take these chances, we'll make it somehow. 

And take these chances to turn it around

(Take my...) 

Just turn it around. 

CHORUS 

You can take your time, take my time.

Cool Kids

"Cool Kids" by Echosmith (2013). 

She sees them walking in a straight line, 

That's not really her style. 

And they all got the same heartbeat, 

But hers is falling behind. 

Nothing in this world 

Could ever bring them down. 

Yeah, they're invincible,

And she's just in the background. 

And she says: 

I wish that I could be like the cool kids, 

'Cause all the cool kids, they seem to fit in. 

I wish that I could be like the cool kids,

Like the cool kids. 

He sees them talking with a big smile,

But they haven't got a clue. 

Yeah they're living the good life,

Can't see what he is going through.

They're driving fast cars,

But they don't know where they're going.

In the fast lane,

Living life without knowing.

And he says: 

CHORUS

I wish that I could be like the cool kids, 

'Cause all the cool kids, they seem to fit in. 

I wish that I could be like the cool kids,

Like the cool kids. 

I wish that I could be like the cool kids, 

'Cause all the cool kids, they seem to get it.

I wish that I could be like the cool kids,

Like the cool kids. 

Chorus x3 

Young and Beautiful

"Young and Beautiful" by Lana del Rey (2013). 

I've seen the world, 

Done it all, 

Had my cake now.

Diamonds, brilliant, 

The Bel Air now. 

Hot summer nights, mid-July, 

When you and I were forever wild. 

The crazy days, city lights,

The way you'd play with me like a child. 

CHORUS
Will you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful? 

Will you still love me when I've got nothing but my aching soul? 

I know you will, 

I know you will,

I know that you will. 

Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful? 

I've seen the world, lit it up,

As my stage now. 

Channeling angels in the New Age now. 

Hot summer days, rock n' roll,

The way you'd play for me at your show. 

And all the ways I got to know 

Your pretty face and electric soul.

CHORUS 

Dear Lord, when I get to heaven,

Please let me bring my man. 

When he comes tell me that you'll let him in. 

Father, tell me if you can.

Oh, that grace,

Oh, that body, 

Oh that face,

Makes me wanna party. 

He's my sun, he makes me shine

Like diamonds. 

CHORUS 

Opheliac

"Opheliac" by Emilie Autumn (2006). 

I'm your Opheliac

I've been so disillusioned. 

I know you'd take me back, 

But still I feigned confusion. 

I couldn't be your friend,
My world was too unstable. 

You might have seen the end

 But you were never able 

To keep me breathing 

As the water rises up again

Before I slip away. 

CHORUS 

You know the games I play 

And the words I say

When I want my own way. 

You know the lies I tell

When you've gone through hell

And I say I can't stay. 

You know hard it can be 

To keep believing in me

When everything and everyone 

Becomes my enemy and 

When there's nothing more you can do

I'm gonna blame it on you.

It's not the way I want to be,

I only hope that in the end you will see

It's the Opheliac in me. 

It's the Opheliac in me. 

I'm your Opheliac, 

My stocking prove my virtues. 

I'm open to attack,

But I don't want to hurt you. 

Whether I swim or sink

That's no concern of yours now.

How could you possibly think

You had the power to know how 

To keep me breathing 

As the water rises up again 

Before I slip away. 

CHORUS 

Studies show...

Intelligent girls are more depressed 

Because they know  

What the world is really like 

Don't think for a beat it makes it better

When you sit her down and tell her 

Everything's gonna be alright.

She knows in society she either is 

A devil or an angel with no in-between.

She speaks in third person

So she can forget that she's me. 

Doubt thou the stars are fire

Doubt thou the sun doth move

Doubt truth to be a liar, 

But never doubt...

Doubt thou the stars are fire

Doubt thou the sun doth move

Doubt truth to be a liar 

But never doubt I love. 

CHORUS x2

Angel

"Angel" by Sarah McLachlan (1997). 

Spend all your time waiting 

For that second chance,

For a break that would make it okay. 

There's always some reason

To feel not good enough

And it's hard at the end of the day.
I need some distraction, 

Oh, beautiful release, 

Memories seep from my veins. 

Let me be empty and weightless

And maybe I'll find some peace tonight. 

CHORUS

In the arms of the angel, 

Fly away from here.

From this dark, cold hotel room,

And the endlessness that you fear. 

You are pulled from the wreckage

Of your silent reverie. 

You're in the arms of the angel,

May you find some comfort here. 

So tired of the straight line,

And everywhere you turn

There's vultures and thieves at your back.

And the storm keeps on twisting,

You keep on building the lies

That you make up for all that you lack.

It don't make no difference

Escaping one last time.

It's easier to believe in this sweet madness,

Oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees.

CHORUS

Hide and Seek

Today's song: "Hide and Seek", by Imogen Heap (2005). 

Where are we?

What the hell is going on? 

The dust has only just begun to fall. 

Crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling. 

Spin me 'round and rub my eyes,

This can't be happening. 

When busy streets amass with people 

Would stop to hold their heads heavy. 

Hide and seek.

Trains and sewing machines. 

All those years they were here first.

Oily marks appear on walls

Where pleasure moments hung before.

The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this 

Still life. 

Hide and seek, 

Trains and sewing machines.

(Oh, you won't catch me around here.) 

Blood and tears,

They were here first. 

Mmm, what you say? 

Mm, that you only meant well? 

Well of course you did. 

Mmm, what you say? 

Mm, that it's all for the best?

Well, of course it is. 

Mmm, what you say? 

Mm, that it's just what we need? 

You decided this. 

What you say? 

Mmm, what did you say? 

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth. 

Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.

Speak no feeling, no, I don't believe you. 

You don't care a bit, you don't care a bit. 

x2 

You don't care a bit (x5)

In My Place

Yesterday's song: In My Place by Coldplay (2002). 

In my place, in my place

Were lines that I couldn't change. 

I was lost, oh yeah. 

I was lost, I was lost,

Crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed,

I was lost, oh yeah. 

CHORUS

Yeah, how long must you wait for it? 

Yeah, how long must you pay for it? 

Yeah, how long must you wait for it, 

Oh, for it? 

I was scared, I was scared.

Tired and underprepared,

But I'll wait for it. 

If you go, if you go, 

Leave me down here on my own,

Then I'll wait for you, yeah. 

CHORUS

Singing

Please, please, please,

Come back and sing to me, 

To me, to me. 

Come on and sing it out, now, now,

Come on and sing it out, to me, to me,

Come back and sing it. 

In my place, in my place,

Were lines that I couldn't change.
I was lost, oh yeah. 

Love Pollution

Crossing bridges over water

A new reflection creeping in. 

Got your head so full of traffic

The love pollution's setting in. 

CHORUS

Cos I'm feeling that I can't go on,

I can't go on this way. 

Turning back a hundred pages in the book

As letters fade. 

Been calling out for days, 

As emptiness invades.

Another moment's lost again,

Just sunk beneath the waves.

Been calling out for days,

As emptiness invades.

But hey, hey, hey...

Holding back the undercover

No respect in giving in. 

You'd sell your soul to be another

When love pollution's setting in. 

CHORUS 

You pick the pieces up again.

You're like the song that never ends. 

And you're the reason I wake up. 

And you're my vision,

You're my touch...

CHORUS

This Is Home

I've got my memories

Always inside of me.

But I can't go back,

Back to how it was. 

I believe you now, 

I've come too far. 

No, I can't go back,

Back to how it was. 

Created for a place I've never known...

CHORUS

This is home, 

Now I'm finally where I belong,

Where I belong. 

Yeah, this is home. 

I've been searching for a place of my own, 

Now I've found it. 

Maybe this is home,

This is home. 

Belief over misery,

I've seen the enemy. 

And I won't go back,

Back to how it was. 

And I got my heart set

On what happens next. 

I've got my eyes wide, 

It's not over yet. 

We are miracles 

And we are not alone. 

CHORUS 

And now, after all my searching,

After all my questions,

 I'm gonna call it home. 

I've got a brand new mindset

I can finally see the sunset.

I'm gonna call it home.

CHORUS

Now I know

Yeah, this is home,

And I won't go back,

Yeah, this is home. 

Sk8er Boi

This one is on the fun side - this song was huge when I was a kid - I remember hearing it for the first time on the way to a friend's party in the limo when I was 7 years old. I was listening to it on repeat today, just reminiscing. Sk8er Boi by Avril Lavigne, 2002.

He was a boy

She was a girl

Can I make it any more obvious? 

He was a punk 

She did ballet,

What more can I say? 

He wanted her,

She'd never tell.

Secretly she wanted him as well.

And all of her friends stuck up their nose

And they had a problem with his baggy clothes. 

He was a skater boy,

She said, "See ya later, boy" 

He wasn't good enough for her. 

She had a pretty face,

But her head was up in space. 

She needed to come back down to Earth. 

Five years from now,

She sits at home,

Feeding the baby,

She's all alone. 

She turns on TV,

Guess who she sees? 

Skater boy rockin' up MTV.

She calls all her friends,

They already know,

And they've all got tickets to see his show. 

She tags along, 

And stands in the crowd,

Looks up at the man that she turned down. 

He was a skater boy, 

She said, "See ya later, boy"

He wasn't good enough for her. 

Now he's a superstar,

Slamming on his guitar.

Did your pretty face see what he's worth? 

(x2) 

Sorry, girl, but you missed out.

Well, tough luck, that boy's mine now. 

We are more than just good friends,

This is how the story ends.

Too bad that you couldn't see,

See the man that boy could be.

There is more than meets the eye. 

I see the soul that is inside. 

He's just a boy,

And I'm just a girl,

Can I make it any more obvious? 

We are in love.

Haven't you heard how we rock each other's world? 

I'm with the skater boy,

I said, "See ya later, boy," 

I'll be backstage after the show. 

I'll be at the studio,

Singing the song we wrote

About a girl you used to know. 

(x2)

Big Girls Don't Cry

Today's song is Big Girls Don't Cry, by Fergie (2007).

Da da da da

The smell of your skin lingers on me now. 

You're probably on your flight back to your hometown. 

I need some shelter of my own protection, baby. 

To be with myself and center. 

Clarity, peace, serenity. 

CHORUS

                    I hope you know,

                                     I hope you know,

That this has nothing to do with you.

It's personal, myself and I

We've got some straightening out to do. 

And I'm gonna miss you

Like a child misses their blanket,  
But I've got to get a move on with my life. 

It's time to be a big girl now,

And big girls don't cry. 

Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry. 

The path that I'm walking,

I must go alone.

I must take the baby steps

Till I'm full grown, full grown. 

Fairytales don't always have a happy ending,

Do they? 

And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay. 

CHORUS 

Like the little schoolmate in the schoolyard,

We'll play jacks and Uno cards. 

I'll be your best friend,

And you'll be my Valentine. 

Yes, you can hold my hand if you want to,

Cause I want to hold yours, too.

We'll be playmates and lovers,

And share our secret worlds. 

But it's time for me to go home,

It's getting late and dark outside.

I need to be with myself and center, 

Clarity, peace, serenity. 

CHORUS

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